On February 25, 2022, Nessa Barrett released her song ‘dying on the inside,’ along with the accompanying music video. The alt-pop singer-songwriter has previously spoken out about her borderline personality disorder, anxiety, and sadness, and she believes in honesty and being truthful with her fans.
And this time, after many battles, she finally spoke up in her horrifying dance-rock song about her weight loss and eating disorder issues. The song is about how artificial beauty standards cause many young people to obsess over losing weight and developing eating disorders. “I’ve already talked about my bipolar disorder, anxiety, and sadness.”
“But one thing I’ve struggled to talk about is my eating disorder,” Barrett said in a statement. She went on to say that she wanted to write a song that people could relate to while also conveying her problems. Even if listeners do not have an eating disorder, they may be able to relate because they have been subjected to online comparisons.
Nessa Barrett Discusses Her Eating Disorder and Weight Loss
During an interview with Nylon to promote her new song, the singer discussed her issue in depth, claiming she had no idea it was a problem. Barrett’s relationship with food deteriorated when she compared herself to her high school peers. She wanted to look more like them, so she embarked on an unhealthy diet.
“At first, I’d have my mom make my lunch or tell her, ‘Hey mom, I’m going to buy lunch at school,’ and then not eat anything.” “Sometimes I’d hide my dinner or pretend to eat it in my room before flushing it down the bathroom toilet,” the singer explained.
The singer would go on Tumblr and look for pro-anorexic content, which she had no idea was a problem or that it was disturbing to look at. She was preoccupied with “stick figures” and the desire to lose weight. Her internet celebrity, unfortunately, exacerbated the situation.
People started making comments about her appearance, calling her overweight and asking if she was pregnant or had gained weight. Many years later, at the age of 18, she was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD), and it was discovered that BPD and eating disorders frequently co-occurred.
The Recovering Journey of Nessa Barrett
Because the artist noticed that eating disorders were not being discussed enough, she wrote a song about it. It was also her initial step toward recovery. Her writing sessions all began with a therapy session. She discussed what she had learned from her therapists in an interview with Seventeen.
“I’ve been working with my therapist on this, and we do something called fact-checking.” I’ll read a bad remark and think to myself, ‘Oh my god, this is real.’ But for a brief moment, I wonder, ‘Is this truly true?’ Is a person’s reaction to this something that affects my self-worth, self-love, or confidence? “Is this supposed to be my identity from now on, based on one comment?” asked the singer.
Of course, it wasn’t, so Barrett emphasized the importance of fact-checking and pausing for a few moments to realize that the single statement meant nothing.
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